round three...ding ding ding

well it is monday night and chemo in on the agenda for the morning...gin's white count was low last week and so there is some question about whether or not she will be able to have treatment...blood test in the morning will reveal all...

we celebrated our birthdays this weekend...good time...great friends...felt really good to celebrate life with each other...

i am leaving wednesday, going to california for a training for work...we have come up with a plan for ginny...actually the plan is for me...i will feel a whole lot better about leaving with a plan...a little nuts i know...but i will not be able to relax while away without it...

after round three is completed ginny will have a CT scan (April 7th) to see if the dope is doing the job.  if the chemo is not working they are likely to try a new cocktail...before revisiting surgery (which has not been an option because of the risk to ginny)...hoping hoping hoping hoping...

the question asked often this week?  how are you holding up...i am holding up...i will say that i am anxious with the CT scan coming up...and trying to not put energy into stuff until i need to...although that is hard to do some days, in some moments...i catch myself thinking about the past 3 years...it has been an amazing ride...focusing in on the trip to france and italy this past fall....i want more....lots more...and i am counting on ginny's determination, our love for each other and the dope to work in concert and kick this crap to the curb...

kirsten