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Morning (Saturday).  We are home from the hospital. Gin is pleased to be home and our dogs at happy to have their Mums back.

 We are struggling here this morning and are asking for prayer and good thoughts. Under all the surgery and post surgery meds, the rectal pressure pain that has been Gin’s greatest challenge these past many months was under control and masked. Yesterday she struggled ALL day with pain and pressure rated at 9/10 most of the day.  This is the same pain she was living with pre-surgery. She has resumed her pre-op pain management and was taking her extra dilaudid through the night and is sill struggling. We have been trying to let things settle with hopes that this is just post-op and that it will settle.  We all hoped the colostomy would help with pain relief.  If this persists, we will have been wrong about what causes the pain.  My non-medical thoughts are that it is indeed the tumor and the pressure and pain it causes is indeed the pressure and pain that she feels.  There is disappointment and sadness here this morning.  Having the colostomy has many other benefits, so it is not for not, but we need pain under control.  Even though the sadness and disappointment feels strong this morning, the optimism is still lingering.  Thanks for loving us so fiercely.

Kir