Sunday, December 18, 2016

Another 30,000-Foot Post

An apology for the lapse in posts the past couple of weeks.  Much going on.

I am in the air...alone this time.  I am on my way to Winnipeg this morning.  I will meet my sister Erika and we will travel to Portage La Prairie, the place of my birth, to say goodbye to my mother’s sister.

On November 28th we received word that my Aunt Gillian was diagnosed with cancer…late stage cancer.  Tumors were present in her liver, both ovaries and both in and out of her colon.  Efforts to address an obstruction in her bowel failed and a second surgery was too much for her to manage.  She died 13 days after diagnosis.  Monday the 19th we will gather to remember, to celebrate and to say goodbye.


I have to say that this has been a difficult few weeks.  Gillian’s diagnosis and death has stirred many memories and feelings.  It has been almost 20s since my mother died, but in these past weeks, it has felt new and raw once again.  My mother was one of three girls.  My grandmother (94) lost my grandfather when my mother and her two younger sisters were little ones, raising them on her own.  My grandmother and Aunt Jocelyn remain.  Aunt Gillian has two children, Scott and Brianne.  Scott is married and he and his wife Laura welcomed Gillian’s first grandbaby only days after her passing.

I will be singing for my Aunt as I have done for all of those I have lost over the years.  There is a joy in being able to do this.  I am thankful that I have Randy Lindbloom genes and am able to share this with family and friends.
Aunt Gillian, Jayme, Aunt Jocelyn, Erika and Kir

On the Ginny front, we had a MARVELOUS weekend in Minneapolis.  We attended Fun Home (touring Broadway musical).  I loved it!  Gal Pal Jocelyn (yep there are two Jocelyns in my world.  Aunt Jocelyn and Pal Jocelyn) joined us for the evening – a gift.  We ate wonderful meals and spent time working on Ginny’s latest writing project.  Gal Pal Joce is co-authoring and her husband Byron, the artist, is illustrating.  I get to publish.  There is much joy in this project.  Saturday morning Pal Joce and I slipped out for some shopping – great fun.






This morning I dropped sweet Gin off at the shuttle and we parted ways.  She has been managing well, although her pain continues to increase and there have been several pump adjustments made in the past weeks.

Ginny describes her pain as pressure that grows from pressure to pain and then to agony.  Most days she can find relief with meds and standing or stretching out.  If asked, she says that she feels like she is sitting on a honey crisp apple (not sure why she selected honey crisp).  Gin believes that the apple is indeed growing as the pressure has increased and more meds are required to keep her comfortable.  She is not scheduled for a scan until January 24th.  I will be inquiring on her behalf on Monday about moving the date up as symptoms are changing.

I return Tuesday evening with two school days left before Christmas break.  I am so looking forward to waking up Thursday morning, knowing that at the end of that day, there will be rest.

We will be home for the holidays.  Gin’s brother Dan and our dear friend Sue Blough will spend the season with us.  We are looking forward to their arrivals later this week. 

With all that is happening there is still a sweetness in this season for the Lindbloom-Larsens.  We are living each moment as we enter it.  We are focused on family and friends and we are loving each other with intention and tenderness.

Time feels short and in some moments that is overwhelming.  It is then that gratitude takes over, gratitude for love, for life, for the time we have had and for the days ahead.

Enjoy the season, love with intention and tenderness…

Gratefully
Kir

My iPod is spinning favorite carols this morning.  This one makes me weepy. Always been my favorite.  Oh Come All Ye Faithful